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Sunday, April 29, 2012

The unexpected next step..

Proverbs 16:9 says "In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps."  I confess this is a step I did not foresee.  After less than a year here in Tennessee Justin has turned in his letter of resignation, and found a new job.  It has been a long and difficult process and making the decision to leave was a difficult one.  There are lots of reasons that we believe this decision the right one but most of all I feel like God is leading us to our new place.  I prayed often that if we weren't supposed to go that this new job opportunity would not work out. There were days I did not think the offer would come through but it did.
So as of right now we will leave this beautiful place in three months and make our new home in Texas.  I quoted the verse earlier and it makes me smile because just over 9 years ago when Justin and I were deciding what we should do with the year we would have off between college and med school we made a deal.  We would go to Colorado for a year and then he would bring me back to Texas. If you know our story then you know that in the last nine years we have spent 9 months in Texas and it was never a permanent place. :)  When we moved here to Tennessee last year I had given up on ever moving back to Texas.  I had just decided that it was not where God needed us.
There is still a lot of things to be done and details to be worked out. And I am tempted to be stressed out and overwhelmed by all that is and can come from this transition time.  But it is my prayer that God will make the darkness bright before us and smooth out the road ahead of us, as he promised the Israelites in Isaiah.  It is also my prayer that God is glorified through this transition and that I will be able to report back all of the amazing things He has done for us that only He could do.  So instead of being overwhelmed and stressed I will step out in faith, and will wait to declare the goodness of God. 
Here goes our next adventure....

Monday, April 16, 2012

Holding Pattern

Right now our lives are in somewhat of a holding pattern. There are events and changes looming on the horizon. And while not all of these events actually involve us they will have an effect on our lives.
The horizon is where these things have been lingering for the last several weeks and that does not appear to be changing anytime soon. So we sit and we wait.
I confess I am not very good at waiting. I am the type of person who always guesses which line will be quickest and then keeps track to see if I chose correctly. Like I said waiting is not one of my strengths.
But waiting is where I find myself. There is nothing I can do about to change the situation.
Yesterday I was thinking about this period of waiting, and this scripture came to mind "Those who wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up on wings like eagles, they shall run and not grow weary, they shall walk and not faint." Isiah 40:31
So instead of hating and enduring this waiting period I have decided to try my best and rest in it. To seek to honor God with this time of waiting. To proclaim my trust in His divine nature and timing that is perfect. To admit that he can see far beyond the scope of my limited vision and to trust Him with our future.
So Lord, in this season of waiting please be our strength and renew us. Foster our spirits that when what is on the horizon comes we will be able to run and not grow weary, that we will walk with you and not faint.
In researching in my concordance the word waiting I came across Psalm 40. After the first 4 verses that talk about waiting on the Lord, verse 5 says this: "Many, O Lord my God, are the wonders you have done. The things you planned for us no one can recount to you; were I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare." Please Lord let this be our testimony of you too when the waiting is done.
Until then I'll be here circling and holding. Holding onto Jesus.